How do you deal with a loss? Especially someone who you love and admire. Chief Ricky Smith passed away yesterday. One of the men who has helped Scottie and I in our hardest times. How do you say goodbye to someone like that? I didn't think I would have much of a hard time with his passing since he's been sick for a while, but it's effecting me more and more. I drove past the fire house last night on my way home from work, and passed Ambulance 37 drapped with black fabric and just cried. Ambulance 37 was dedicated to Ricky last year. It will be out of service until the funeral i'm guessing.

I love you Underdog. Thank you for everything you have done for not only Scott and I, but for everyone in this community. You have touched so many lives and saved so many people. Rest sweet Ricky. Know that you're family is taken care of. We will always be there for Bettie and the kids. I'm going to miss you so much. <3

God Gave Me You

I’ve been a walking heartache
I’ve made a mess of me
The person that I’ve been lately
Ain’t who I wanna be

But you stay here right beside me
Watch as the storm goes through
And I need you

God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you

There’s more here than what were seeing
A divine conspiracy
That you, an angel lovely
Could somehow fall for me
You’ll always be love’s great martyr
Ill be the flattered fool
and I need you

God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you

On my own I’m only
Half of what I could be
I can’t do without you
We are stitched together
And what love has tethered
I pray we never undo

God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you, gave me you.
Gave me you

I know this is a love some between husband and wife, but everytime I hear this song I think of Ryleigh. This little girl just knows how to make everything better. On days like today, all I have to do is look at her beautiful little smile and I just can't wait to be home with her. I have never felt so much love towards anyone. I don't even think I can explain it. It's like when I look at her pictures at work I just ache to be home with her. I mean, physically ache.
I truley believe God tested me for so long just to reward me with the most amazing daughter I could have ever asked for. Even still, I could have the worst day I could have ever had and I just have to think about getting home and seeing her sweet smile. Ugh I just love it. <3

Tough day

Today is the day of anniversaries. 6 years ago today, my grandmother unexpectedly passed away. One year ago today my uncle (her son) passed away from complications of a heart transplant/kidney failure. Today is one of those days that you wish would just fall off the calendar. I don't even know what else to write about all of this. It's pretty much all just a jumble. I always pray that April 6th goes by faster than all the other days.


Georgie Porgie puddin' and pie
Kissed the girls and made them cry
When the boys came out to play
Georgie Porgie ran away


:) My grandmother always said that. She had a cat named George (female cat I might add) so whenever she was talking to him, she would recite that rhyme. God I miss her. <3






My uncle's Goldwing. Well, not technacilly his, but same bike. When he passed, a few days later, we had a MAJOR storm system come through. We would joke that when we heard thunder, Uncle Ed was revving up his bike.
I love you. <3

Dorthy Joan Holland- 4/6/2005
Charles Edwin Holland- 4/6/2010
I miss you both more than anyone could imagine. <3

Casting Crowns - Praise you in this storm

Rolly-Pooly-Olly!

We have a roller. Well, we have for the past few weeks. :) She's hilarious. She get's so excited when she rolls over. I love it!

The Lord works in a strange way,
There ain't no doubt,
Man he's gonna make a man of me,
He's gonna straighten me out somehow.

I was twenty-seven years old that summer,
Just having my self a ball,
Working on a record deal,
Playing in the bars and concert halls, making money just to watch it burn, living day by day,
Stayed out late drinkin' way too much, didn't act my age,
But life turned on a dime when she said, you're going to be a daddy come wintertime.

The Lord works in a strange way,
There ain't no doubt,
Man he's gonna make a man of me,
He's gonna straighten me out somehow.
The lord works in a strange way,
And Heaven knows,
He's planning on a miracle,
Man I wonder how it's gonna go,
The lord works in a strange way,
Oh oh

Man I never saw the changes comin' they caught me unaware,
One day I was as wild as a bull the next I was a teddy bear,
Put down the bottle about a month before,
And I put down the cigarettes,
Started holding my wife a little tighter and sayin' the prayers I used' forget,
And now I look into those baby blue eyes and I find all the peace
I've been searching for yeah I finally realize

A year and 3 weeks ago, Scott and I were sitting in my parents living room. Scott started the conversation as "So, you know how the Lord works in mysterious ways...?"
Yeah, seriously?
My dad is the worship leader at my church. We have been involved in the church for umpteen years... Of course they know God works in crazy ways that you never expect.
That was one of them. We were telling them I was pregnant out of wedlock. FANTASTIC! We had been engaged 10 months by that point. Only 2 months until the wedding. My mom told me her first thought was "Umm, OK we can do this." Her second thought was "OMG! THE DRESS!"
I have to admit, I was scared telling my parents, but they have been my biggest supporters through my pregnancy and these past 5 amazing months!!

Back to the song. I got my iPhone a few weeks ago and wanted to add some music. I searched Corey Smith (amazing) and came across this song I haven't heard from him. So I previewed it and laughed until I almost fell out of the chair! I had Scott read the lyrics and listen to the song and I had him rolling. The most ironic thing about this song is not only the chorus, but also I told him I was pregnant in March due in October. And he was 27 years old. But he wasn't working on his record deal... :)

Love it! <3

Comatose

S found this song the other day and added it to our iTunes. I just came across it coming to work this morning, and fell in love with it. It's such a love song. That's the kind of love that I thrive for with God. I heard it and thought it was a "worldly" group and looked at my phone and immediately my thoughts changed. I got lost in the lyrics. Amazing.

 

 

 

I hate feeling like this
I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of
Is waking to You
Tell me that You will listen
You're touch is what i'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing You
Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of You
I don't wanna live, I dont wanna breathe
'Les I feel you next to me
You take the pain I feel
Waking up to You never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep, I don't wanna dream
'Cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way You make me feel
Waking up to You never felt so real
I hate living without You
Dead wrong to ever doubt You
But my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away
Oh how I adore You
Oh how I thirst for You
Oh how I need You
Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of You
I don't wanna live, I dont wanna breathe
'Les I feel You next to me
You take the pain I feel
Waking up to You never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep, I don't wanna dream
'Cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to You never felt so real
Breathing life
Waking up
My eyes open up
Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of You
I don't wanna live, I dont wanna breathe
'Les I feel You next to me
You take the pain I feel
Waking up to You never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep, I don't wanna dream
'Cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way You make me feel
Waking up to You never felt so real
Oh how I adore You
Waking up to You never felt so real
Oh how I thirst for You
Waking up to You never felt so real
Oh how I adore You
The way You make me feel
Waking up to You never felt so real


Christian lyrics - COMATOSE LYRICS - SKILLET

Skillet - Comatose (Lyrics)

Playing with pictures

We've been taking a lot of pictures lately. I think it has to do a lot with reading some blogs about moms who have lost their children. I really shouldn't be reading them. I'm too much of a "what if" person. My imagination has too much of a mind of its own. I'll leave it at that.

This weekend was pretty great. Saturday was the kick off of softball season. While I'm excited about it, I'm not so excited that there are SO many games this year. 30 in the matter of 15 weeks, not including all the tournaments. So I'm guessing around 38 games. BUT, S is coaching this year. I'm soooo proud of him! I'm sure he'll do great!

Growing Up

Darlin, I don't think that's how you're supposed to sit in there... :)

Ry has been growing up so fast. She is such an amazing baby, I really couldn't ask for anything better! (I'm sure you are tired of hearing this!!)
She has found her voice. There really isn't any time NOT hearing her gabbing away! From the time her eyes open until the time I put her to bed she is either squealing, humming, cooing or laughing. To a mother, there's no better sound.
S and I found that if she is fussy, put on music or drum beats and she'll literally stop in her tracks. It really shouldn't surprise us. We both are CRAZY about music. I don't know what we would do without it!!
She's stuffy again. While I'm so thankful it's nothing more than being snotty, I'm so tired of the screaming when I'm sucking out the gunk. BUT her sleep has not been effected. I can honestly say she has been sleeping through the night since 5 1/2 weeks old except for 2 nights... :)

Here are some pictures of her the few minutes after she was born, at 2 1/2-3 months old and at 4 1/2 months old. She's getting so big! <3





::sniff::

I have the best husband in the world.

Ok.. So it's about 1 A.m. and I was looking at your blog and realized you haven't been writing on this much anymore. I love reading about your annoying husband (aka - ME). But the real reason I came on here tonight was to let you and anyone else you reads this know that your are the most amazing woman god could of found for me. You complete me in ways that only would make sense to us. I am so happy to have finally ended up with someone like you. I love our daughter a little more than you but hey who doesnt. LOL! I wish that all of your blessings are being answered as I stand beside you to keep you standing upright, behind you to keep you moving and in front of you to guide you. I love you and you should really repost this and label it the nicest thing my husband has said to me. But for now I am going to try and sneak into bed beside you without waking you. With all my love my heart can give.
Always yours
S (aka Scott Strandberg Jr.)

Most Handsom Man Award...

goes to this guy. To me, he looks exactly like Bing Crosby in White Christmas. I love it. The man on the left happens to be my grandfather when he joined the Army in WWII. The man on the right is my great-grandfather.
My aunt (grandfather's sister) posted some old pictures on her facebook and I fell in love with this one. :) Just had to share.

4 month stats

My little bugger is a towering drool monster!! But a pretty darn cute one!!

One ounce shy of 13lbs. - 30th percentile
Head circumference is in the 55th percentile
This is the kicker...
She is 26 1/2 INCHES TALL!!!! She is off the charts in her height!! WTH!!! She is the normal height for a 7 month old girl!

I just about fell over when the nurse at the Dr office told me that! BUT, the Dr told us she looks amazing and is developing great! :) So, we must be doing something right!

We were also given the OK to start solids!! WOOHOO! I can't wait. We're going to try some rice cereal when I get off of work! I can't wait! (Although, I'm worried that it will mess up her already perfect schedule!!!)
But like all things, we'll get through it! I'm so lucky to have such an amazing baby!! <3

Happy Valentine's Day!!

I'm so ill prepared for Valentine's day this year! I forgot completely to get S a card or ANYTHING! I fail as a wife!! AND a mother. I didn't get anything for Ry. I know she doesn't know the difference, I just still want to get her something! Jeesh! I might just have to stop by the store after work or something!

I gotta say, I have an amazing husband. He ordered me flowers to be sent to my work! They are amazingly pretty! I can't wait until they really start to open up! :) OH, and along with the flowers, he sent chocolates and a stuffed bear! :) He's so sweet! <3

As much as he aggravates me, he really makes up for it. He is the most thoughtful person I know. He would do just about anything for me. I really need to remind myself that more. I get so frustrated when he plays xbox all the time and when he's out 4 nights a week playing softball... I really need to remind myself that he does so much to make up for that! He does dishes ALL the time, he throws a load of laundry in whenever it needs done, he takes care of the dogs, he is SUCH a great daddy! I couldn't ask for more.

S, if you're reading this, I LOVE YOU with all my heart, and I wouldn't trade your love for the world. <3 Never forget that.

I have a headache...

the size of Montana. :*(
I just want to crawl back in back in bed and pull the covers over my head!

My skin hurts so bad on my hands and face... I HATE WINTER!
I'm so ready for spring!!

Vent over.

So, we found a house! It'll be some time until we are able to actually buy a house, but we're working on it! I'm so excited. I feel that once we move, I'll be complete! It'll be one of the last big "things". Even though I'm so happy at how things have been going for S and I, I hate the thought of me "growing up". I miss the ignorance and lack of responsibility. I regret telling my parents that I couldn't wait to grow up and be able to do my own thing. Now I would give my right arm to be able to live that life again.

My thoughts for the day. <3

Well...

I apparently suck at keeping up with this thing... So I'm giving up on this Challange... I found a picture challange I might try... But I'll wait and see if it's something I can keep up with!

So, Little Miss is officially 16 weeks old (as of Saturday). I can't believe I have a 4 month old! She's such a great girl. She's acutally been holding her own bottle and starting to try and put it in her own mouth!! (As seen below!!)



We go to the pedi on the 21st for her 4 month check up! As excited as I am to be going and seeing how she's developed, I'm dreading the shots!! She did okay at her 2 mo appt, but now that she's showing more of a personality, I'm sure all hell will break lose! (I'm so optimistic... Can you tell?!)

Day 21-Picture of yourself

This was taken the day after I cut 13" off my hair!! BAHHH! I can't believe I did that! But it feels SO much better!

Day 20-Nicknames

Mergan is my most popular nickname... As you can tell!
I'm also called Meg, Merg, Megs, Meggie (which I despise!), MegHan.

We call Ry a whole bunch of names!
RyRy, Punkin, Bug, Darlin', StinkerPot.... Whatever comes to mind! :)

Day 19-Something you miss

I miss my brother. Well, not my biological brother. He is my best friend. He ended up getting married and moved to Florida so his wife could go to college. And they never made it back up here! He comes up all the time which is fantastic. He is fantastic. :)

Day 18-Something you regret

I regret all the crazy things I put my parents through when I was younger. Now that I'm a mother, I always worry how Ry's life will be. Will she go out and be crazy? Will she lie to me? Will she go out drinking? I try not to dwell on these things. I'll lose enough sleep when the time comes. I love Ry with all my heart and want to keep her safe. I know I can only do so much and point her in the right direction.

I regret not going to my friends funeral. He passed right before Christmas and my ex and I were going to TN for Christmas with his family the day of his funeral. I really should have pushed to stay an extra day. I miss him dearly.

Day 17-Something you're looking forward to

*Becoming a stay at home mom
*Watching my family grow
*Being able to pay ALL bills without scrounging
*Buying a house to call my own
*Being transfered to a different branch inside the company I work for
*Getting taxes back! WhoopWhoop!!!
*S getting his paid Fire Fighter job with the government

There are so many more things I'm looking forward to. These are at the top of the list! I just can't wait to see my family grow!!

Day 16-Dream house

This house is in Kailua, HI. I've never been here, but I can always dream! :)

Day 15-Bible verse

Matthew 18: 1-5

 ¹ At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, “Who, then, is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?”
 ² He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them. ³ And He said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. ⁴ Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. ⁵ And whoever welcomes one such child in My name welcomes Me.

Day 14-A picture you love

Pretty much every picture of Ry is a picture I absolutely love. She's such a beautiful baby!!

These are from her 3 month pictures. <3






There's many many more, but these are my fave. <3 This girl means the world to me!

Day 13-Goals

I have so many goals.
*Lose the last 15 lbs of baby weight
*Get back in with the fire department
*Help S get a new job with benefits
*Get a job with my mom's preschool
*Get enough courage to bring up a situation that's been bothering me at work since Oct
*Make S's and my marrige even better than it is and keep it that way
*Raise a happy healthy little girl
*Better myself

I could go on and on, but these are the main ones. I just want a better life for my daughter. We can't exactly give that to her now. But we will.
That's a promise.

Day 12-What you believe

I'm not a "religious" person. I believe in having a relationship with God. I believe that God wants us to have an actual relationship with him.
This is directly from my church website.

A Commitment to Praise and Worship
Psalm 95:6, John 4:23-24
We believe that man was created for fellowship and communion with God in the Spirit. This fellowship and communion finds intimate expression in the joyful praise and worship of our God.


I believe in God's command to go into the world and preach. (Mark 16:15) Aka: Missions.

I believe in order to go to heaven and have a relationship with God, you must accept his love and forgiveness in your life and believe that He send His only son to die for me and you. (John 3:16)

Day 11-Favorite TV shows

Wow. I really suck at keeping up with this. It didn't help that this weekend was kind of crazy. So, now that I'm at work and it's relatively slow, I'll try to catch up! (As much as my headache will allow.)

I watch much more TV than I do movies.

My favorites:




























Needless to say, the TV is on all the time. Even if we're not watching it really, we like to have the noise.

Day 10-Something you're afraid of

*I switched Day 9 and Day 10. I'm at work and don't have pictures of my friends on this computer!!*

I think I could go on forever on this topic... Fear is something that is sadly VERY normal for me.

*Bridges. Especially the TJ Bridge where I live. It's 125 feet tall, and a mile long. I HATE HATE HATE that bridge. It's probably because I grew up literally right underneath it. I see all the cracks and rust. BLECH!!!


I guess this also derives from my fear of heights. My knees start to shake every time I'm up high!! It just freaks me out!!

*Spiders, snakes, anything creepy-crawley!! I HATE THEM!!! I go through the roof if I see anything of the sort!!

*From a more emotional stand-point, I'm terrified of failure. I can't stand the thought of disappointing anyone I care about.

*I'm afraid of being in large crowds. I hate the thought of being somewhere with a million other people. Especially a million people I don't know. Hence the reason I still live in the small town. I can't stand the thought of living in the city!

Day 8-A place you've traveled to

I'm such a loser. I can count on two hands how many states I've been to (not including the states that I have driven through). I've been to Virgina, West Virginia, Pennsylvania, North Carolina, South Carolina, Florida, Vermont, Texas and of course Maryland.
Driving, I have not been west of West Virginia. Sad I know!

In 2003, I went on a missions trip to Mexico with my church. I really wish I had pictures uploaded to my computer. I only have some pictures in a scrapbook. (My first attempt to scrapbook. It's pretty pathetic!) It was amazing. We went with a group called Global Expeditions. They are some AMAZING people. I learned so much from them. We went into a place right over the border called Nuevo Lorado. It was probably the most poverty filled place I have been. Buildings with no doors, people living in vans on the side of the road. The children were so dirty like they have not taken a shower or bath in a month. It really was a humbling experience. My outlook on life really changed after I came home.
If I could go back and do it over again, I would in a heart beat!

Day 7-Favorite movies

I don't have a favorite movie. I have favorite genres, but no specific movies.
I love:
Romance- PS I love you, The Notebook, The Princess Bride
Comedy- The Break-Up, Knight and Day, The Ugly Truth
Drama- My Sister's Keeper, Shindler's List, The Departed
Action- The Transporter, Troy, Battle of the Titans
Oldies- Rooster Cogburn, True Grit (With John Wayne), The Sons of Kate Elder
Disney- All Princess movies, All Pixar movies,
Ok... so I haven't really seen a kids anamated movie that I didn't like... *shyface*



Those are just the first examples I came up with in that genre. S and I watch movies a lot. Before Ry was born, we would go out every other week and buy a new release from WalMart. We loved it.

Day 6-A picture of something that makes you happy

I could post a million pictures that make me happy. I'll try to stick to just a few. I know it only says one... :)


The FurBabies. Princess- Beagle mix. Ember- Dalmation


Those chubby little cheeks. ugh. I could eat them allll day!!


S's quirky sense of humor. He makes even the worse situation easier. No matter how mad or frustrated I get (even with him) he just knows how to make me laugh. (Even when it makes me even more mad!!) He's amazing. <3





Mmmm those cheeks... <3

Day 5-Your siblings

 My sister... Hmmm. What to say about her! We're about 4 1/2 years apart. I think it's a little too far apart. We fought ALL the time growing up. It was even worse when we got older. I started having to lock my door or else she would steal all my clothes and makeup. Drove. Me. CRAZY!
But now that we're older and I'm not living at the house anymore things are a lot better. We talk regularly about almost everything. She's a great little sister! :)



Ry and Auntie B

Day 4-Your parents

My parents are AMAZING. They have been married 26 years come February. They met in high school but weren't exactly high school sweet hearts. They were band nerds! :) (Probably why I was a chorus nerd in high school...) When my mom first saw my dad, she told her best friend that she was going to marry him one day... He just didn't know it yet! My dad had joined the Navy and was engaged to another woman. When he got back from basic, he found out she was with someone else. Somehow or another, he and my mom got together. They were married at the ages 19 and 22, had me at 22 and 25 and had my sister 4 1/2 years later. They, like all couples, have their issues. But they never let that interfer with their love.

I want their fairy tale.

Day 3-Your first love

Hmm, this one's tough. I met him in middle school. We dated on and off throughout 7th and 8th grades and decided to break up in the beginning of our freshman year of high school. We stopped talking due to the fact that he started dating my middle school best friend. Thankfully I never had any classes with either of them. Junior high school we started talking again and decided to start dating again. Things went very good for a while. Than little things started happening. I noticed I didn't have many of my own friends. We always were hanging out with his friends and doing things that he liked. I started drifting away from my church family and friends. Than things would happen to where I wasn't "allowed" to talk to certen people. He would get p/o'd when I didn't text him back within minutes. I had to justify every single thing I did. I even got "in trouble" when I pierced my ears without talking to him about it first.

Thankfully, I went to PA with him when I was 18. He had mentioned many times that he wanted us to move up there after graduation. After seeing how secluded the area is up there, I knew I wouldn't want to leave where I'm at. So when I got back from PA I knew I would have to call our relationship off. It was very tough. I knew he would be upset, but I wasn't expecting to hear what he said. He went crazy telling me he wouldn't live without me. He said he was going to come over to my house.... Things just went on from there. But I stood by my decision and went back to the single life. Let me tell you... It was wonderful!

Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name

Meaning behind my Blog Name... Four Leaf Clovers...
I'm Irish. I'm a Fitzgerald. I believe in luck when you find these amazing little things. Of course, I have yet to find more than one... But my 12 year old cousin has found just about a million! But my only desire is to go to Ireland. I want to do the "touristy" thing and hang upside-down and kiss that nasty Blarney Stone. I want to go to the Counties Kerry, Kildare, Galway, Cork and especially Dublin. I want to see the country side and amazing scenery. I want to see the castles. Ugh. I get goosebumps whenever I think about it.

Most of all, I want to see where my great-great grandmother lived and grew up. She's the reason we are in America. Before she died, my great-grandmother wrote her mothers story. I'm trying to find the time to take her written story and type it out to keep. It's pretty much along the lines of her being a mail order bride to an Irishman who immigrated to America. It's a pretty fun story.

Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts

Introduction
Mmkay. I kind of went a little crazy with the intro when I first started this blog with my birth story. So, maybe I'll give you a little info just about me. I'm 22. Married at 21 to the greatest man in the world. We had/still have a lot on our plate other than typical "newly wed issues." It's been hard and it's going to be, but we've made it this far! :) Everything else about me, you can read in my facts!

Recent Picture



This was a mix between yawning and yelling at her pig b/c she stopped playing music! :)



(I don't really have any recent pics of me... Since Ry was born, it's all been about her!)


15 Interesting Facts

1. I can't swim.
2. I have 2 puppies and a cat. I wouldn't trade them for the world... Ok, I lied. Maybe the cat. I'm not much of a cat person. (Plus she scratched me this morning... So I'm mad at her!)
3. I met S when he was dating my best friend at the time. She broke it off with him to date another guy. S and I stayed in touch and it just felt right.
4. S met my mom before he met me! (I locked my keys in my car when his ex and I were at a bar and he went to pick up the spare from my mom and came to save me...)
5. We got our cat the same day I found out I was pregnant.
6. I've been engaged 3 times. Married once.
7. When my mom found out that S was 5 years older than me, she just about fell off the ladder she was painting on. (We were talking about 9/11 and how I was in 8th grade and S was a freshman in college. It caught her off guard!)
8. My grandparents were in NYC the week before the towers fell.
9. I've gone to the same church since I was 4 days old.
10. I lived in the same house since I was born until the day I moved in with S. (Minus 6 months I "lived" with my x-fiance.)
11. I went to school with a lot of the same people since Kindergarten.
12. I didn't get my permit until I was 18.
13. My paternal grandparents died EXACTLY a week apart. (April 6 and April 13, 2005 at 4 in the morning.)
14. My dad's eldest brother died 5 years to the day as my grandmother. (His mom.)
15. I have cousins and aunts and uncles on my Dad's side I've never met before. My family is HUGE!

Challange...? Sure.

Thirty Day Blog Challange...
I saw this on another blog and since I start writing things and just never post, I figured this would help me out a little. :) I'll try to keep up!

Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts
Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3-Your first love
Day 4-Your parents
Day 5-Your siblings
Day 6-A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7-Favorite movies
Day 8-A place you've traveled to
Day 9-A picture of your friends
Day 10-Something you're afraid of
Day 11-Favorite TV shows
Day 12-What you believe
Day 13-Goals
Day 14-A picture you love
Day 15-Bible verse
Day 16-Dream house
Day 17-Something you're looking forward to
Day 18-Something you regret
Day 19-Something you miss
Day 20-Nicknames
Day 21-Picture of yourself
Day 22-Favorite city
Day 23-Favorite vacation
Day 24-Something you've learned
Day 25-Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26-Picture of your family
Day 27-Pets
Day 28-Something that stresses you out
Day 29-3 Wishes
Day 30-a picture

Music = Life

I lost my keys
In the great unknown
And call me please
'Cause I can't find my phone


This is the stuff that drives me crazy.
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately.
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed


This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I've got to trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I might choose
But this is the stuff you use


45 in a 35
Sirens and fines
While I'm running behind


This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed


This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I've got to trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I might choose but this is the stuff You use


To break me of impatience
Conquer my frustrations
I've got a new appreciation


It's not the end of the world


This is the stuff that drives me crazy.
This is the stuff
Someone save me
In the middle of little my mess
I forget how big I'm blessed


This is the stuff that gets under my skin
And I've got to trust you know exactly what You're doing
Might not be what I would choose but this is the stuff You use


This is the stuff You use



This song has to be the best thing I've heard in a long while. It just explains everything I feel. I just let all these little things get to me.
Stress sucks.

Slowww

Today at work has been beyond slow. So I was playing with photobucket. :) It kept me pretty occupied. The rest of my time I've been thinking about Baby Scarlett. She went in for surgery this morning. I've been praying everytime I think about her. I really don't know how her parents stay so strong. I really admire them. I cry just about everytime I read their posts. Ry was born the same day as Scarlett and I just think it hits too close to home. I just couldn't imagine.

This whole job thing is getting to me. Especially the past 2 days with Ry being fussy and sick. I don't think it would be too bad if my job was busier. But it's not, and I sit here thinking about her all day and what I could be doing...

Playing with B&W